About the Books
and the Creators

Beginning with Two Stories of Transformation

The Pivotal Moment of Connection

Kristina: As my healing journey continued, I felt an inner call to write about my experiences. After twenty years of writing my memories, I began to receive higher guidance that my healing journey was to be a book. I did my best to honor this calling. However, in spite of all the heart and soul I put into it, I had the constant feeling that the book was not finished. Even though I knew I had given it all that I had to offer. It wasn’t until I had met Heather Ensworth that the feeling finally changed. I knew she held the missing wisdom, insight, knowledge, and life experience that was so essentially needed. 

Heather: I was contacted by Kristina from the Philippines in 2014 for an astrology reading. After this, she came to meet with me when doing a spiritual retreat here in the United States. At our first encounter, she told me that we would be writing a book together. I was stunned, not knowing her and not having a clue as to what book she was referring to. And then within a year, we were immersed in writing this book, just as Kristina had intuitively seen it!

Alchemy Happens When Two Souls Converge

In this book, Kristina shares her personal journey from severe early physical, sexual, emotional, and ritual abuse through her process of healing across 20 years through all of the layers of emotional and spiritual healing that she undertook. She then also shares all that she has learned as an energy medicine practitioner in supporting others in healing from their experiences of trauma. 

Heather brings to the book her 30 years of experience as a clinical psychologist working with trauma — from working with homeless people in Los Angeles to psychotic children and adults to those who are highly successful in life but struggle with inner emotional and psychological wounds. She also shares her journey of exploring other cultural paths to healing including shamanism, astrology, and ancient wisdom and healing traditions. Together, Kristina and Heather share their personal and professional experiences (of over 50 years) to share their ever-deepening understanding of the process of healing.

The Intention for this Book

To support you in healing from the wounds of the past and to reclaim your wholeness by helping you:

  • Heal from trauma on all levels
  • Reintegrate the split off and wounded parts of yourself
  • Reclaim your inner wholeness
  • Find your connection with Spirit and with your soul self
  • Regain healthy relationships with others 
  • Find your gifts and express your unique creativity
  • Remember your oneness with all that is
  • Regain a sense of inner peace and stillness
  • Find healthy ways to deal with stress 
  • Feel empowered in your life rather than feeling victimized or mired in your past trauma
  • Know true freedom from the pain of the past, from the fear of the future and find the ability to be truly alive and joyful in the present moment
  • Live a life of purpose and meaning

About Kristina & Heather

It Began with Two Stories of Transformation

During my early childhood, my parents were involved in a satanic cult. My father, having been born himself into the cult, was dependent on his father to make a living, which left us all victims to the power of the cult leaders. The year that I turned four was when we finally escaped the terror. This was after a brutal attack and rape that my older sister and I endured. Eventually, we moved two-and-a-half hours away, and my memories of the cult activity faded, but new experiences of abuse filled the spaces. I was now seven, and my mother who had up to that time sexually abused me finally made the choice to stop. She rarely touched me again after the abuse, not to brush my hair, tuck me in, or hold me when I was scared. The neglect now became the most pervasive abuse throughout the rest of my childhood. This was also the age that my Sunday school teacher began to come by the apartment. With my mother both physically and emotionally absent, he had full access to me and my sisters. What started out as molestation, eventually ended in rape. 

Through the 20 years of trying to heal from the complex trauma, abuse and neglect, I gathered along the way what I felt worked and what did not work to support my healing process. I distilled what I discovered were the essential key pieces to my deep healing and the reclaiming of the wholeness of my most authentic Self. I also reflected on how the traditional systems had failed me, and I continually searched for what would ultimately free me from the pain and suffering of my past. Writing this book was a soul offering in hopes to give back to others who are needing hope and a sense that they are not alone as they work the difficult layers of healing past wounds and in coming back home to who they truly are.

After completing a PhD in clinical psychology and Masters degree in theology, I became a successful psychologist in the Los Angeles area and focused my work on helping clients with a history of trauma. After working as a therapist for sixteen years, I became increasingly discontent with the limitations of traditional therapy despite ongoing years of further training. I felt as if there must be more or other ways of healing that would support my clients with complex trauma to heal at deeper levels — emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually.

About this time in my life, I also had a profound mystical experience in which I inwardly heard a voice telling me that if I did not leave my life as I knew it, I would die. Acting in faith, I listened to this inner knowing and despite my angst and feelings of uncertainty, I  dismantled my practice, sold my home, and moved across the country. I felt as if I had walked off a cliff into an abyss. This transition led me into a “wilderness” experience in which my sense of identity as I had known it was stripped away. I went through periods of anxiety, confusion, and depression. During the next seven years, I deepened my own inner work and also explored healing from other perspectives. I studied with indigenous healers and shamans from all over the world. I learned about herbalism, shamanism, and energy healing. I studied ancient wisdom traditions such as astrology, Earth-based spirituality, and the understanding of the Sacred Feminine. I learned about different spiritual approaches and about the power of sacred circles for healing. I came to realize that there are many paths to spirituality, healing, and wholeness.

As I began to emerge from this time of inner and outer exploration, I created a holistic healing center that allowed me to integrate and practice in a new way. I developed and facilitated sacred healing circles for women in which we used mythology, ceremony, and shamanic practices to support each other in healing individually and together. I incorporated shamanic and energy healing practices in my therapy work. I also started doing psychological and spiritual astrology readings that provided guidance about the soul’s purpose, the meaning of the themes in our lives, and the aspects of the self. This is the integrative healing work that I continue to do.